It is almost a year to the day since I last blogged and what a year it has been! It seemed best not to write about how I felt ...as if the world needs more talk of failure and despondency. The comings and goings in the school, a knee injury, general feelings of stress and doubts of the value of what I do were best kept to myself, though my friends certainly heard about them. Now through to the other side I am glad I didn't throw in the towel and I am looking forward to 2012 with great enthusiasm.

One of the interesting things I found during this time was the meaning that emerged through two dances my teenagers and I created for our Performance. From random movement sequences arrived at through improvisation we started to build dances that were about transitions. One in the Spring part of the Performance (our Performance, Bzzz, Ahhh, Woosh, Brrr, was an exploration of the Seasons) was called Growing Pains, the other in the Winter part called Dulciate was about looking back and the looking forward. As they are teenagers this is very much part of their life right now but also mine. The transition from the classes only being taught by me and the school only being my vision to being more open to other teachers and ideas has taken some time and struggle.

If I had not been in this frame of mind would their dances have ended up being about something else? How much does our state of mind influence those around us? How much does it contribute to what we see as our reality?

I was reminded of my friend and colleague who was going through a particularly difficult time one year. In her Performance there were many pieces where the dancers leaned on each other or supported each other in some way to music that whilst very beautiful was quite sad.

Has anyone had similar experiences? I would love to hear.